all pimped out

good times...

blind and barren

its exam week(s)....

.................

which means i often feel like i could
completely
lose control of
any bodily function
at any given time...

its seems like when i haven't had attacks of intense panic,
i've been remarkably calm and collected.
this has been about 20% of the time
another 20% has gone to not caring and
the remaining 60% has been spent mostly panicking and/or eating in order not to panic

if my sticky notes are correct...
i'm still on track and only behind by a day and some hours in my studying schedule

i must say, i'm proud of me.

usually i dont even have a study schedule.
i just trust 'feeling' and 'sense' to know when i should pick up a book and u know...
read.

but lately...'feeling' and 'sense'
are two words i'm not too familiar with

enter sticky post it notes.
...tellin me what to do
cuz i obviously cant tell it to myself.

so u know....

the yellow notes tell it to me...


i've also lost my god given mind several times this week.
mostly its just these little explosions inside my head that no one even sees or hears

other times,
its been me callin my parents at 1am to scream down the phone
about how 'this picture isn't right'

*sigh*

better get back to these marginal cost studies....

hopefully the side effects of readin all this won't be blindness and/or impotence.

but u know....
it most likely is.

i'll be blind
without kids
cuz i studied too much economics....

jaguar wright

...i totally kept forgettin to take pics cuz i was totally mesmerized.
so imagine...this is the best i did...

musiq enters stage.

Sometimes...

Top 10 Reasons Why I Won't Forget Tonite Eva:

1.jerri savin me from myself at 11:30 pm:
DOCLOVE03: i can't believe you'd pass up bilal.... for some chump school shit"
2.lolly keepin me company on the phone while i waited in line at bb kings on a cold night(only to find out 30mins later I coulda just walked in)
3.takin in a whole show all by myself and still rockin out
4.bilal openin up to a Fela cut and i being the only one who knew what it was just from the first drum hit
5.meetin kenny garrett in the crowd and hearin jaguar wright live
6.bilal playin the keyboard with one hand. with one foot firmly planted on keys.singing his nutts off...musiq and jaquar singing back up...
7.him forgettin the words to 'sometimes' cuz the crowd went ballisitic and outsang him
8.musiq spoiling the mood and no one respondin to his stupid prompt
9.bilal's new songs

10.all for $1

sometime around 4am...2 hours past when i shoulda been home...

...i made my way back uptown...

to study microeconomics.

hottt.

i know


the man on the corner made a nice kebab sandwich for $4
2 steps later, starbucks had me shelling out $4 for water and a yogurt...i hate starbucks
.... waited 30mins on the A ...reading 'memoirs of a geisha'...listening to some scraggly boy tryin to pick up 1 of 4 fourteen year old girsl out at 4am: "...so are yall not available... period? or not available to ME? "........"comeon...one of yall has GOT to be available!"


sometimes....

u know....


i love new york.

pinky and the brain

"pinky and the brain are revolutionaries 'cuz everyday they tried to conquer the world...
....there's always something to conquer in this world..."

west village halloween. really...i wish i had the picture of the chick whose costume was 'naked 'cept for teeny pasties on nips and frontal pube area'. yea..i wish i had that one so maybe you could stare like i did. but this'll suffice..cuz its 10x's as creative

this was once me...and trust me...it wasn't fun...so that even when my mom squealed "o! she looks juuust like you did!"..i only felt sorry for her poor cute self. but she is absolutely adorable is she not? If i ever have one of them(kids)..i'll dress her up like so...for rite of passage purposes

4 women. only 2 were brave enough to relish this unidentifiable fruit. tart with a burst of understated sweetness. hurrah tosin and jerri! boo tay and leigh.

Music Saves Lives

Dear Music,

on a week intent on destroying my vibrant spirit...
on a week pretty much destined to crash and burn...
on the week when sitting down & crying & pouring ashes on my head in the middle of a new york city sidewalk seemed like the best idea i'd had so far...
on a week when i had a charlie horse that lasted 30 mins....
on a week i was at the 34th str. stop when I suddenly realized I forgot something in a classroom in waverly...
on a week when watching Oprah at 1am was my emotional release...
on a week i let my toes look scraggly and wore extra thick socks so i could ignore them...
on a week i myself looked a bit scraggly for a day....
on a week when smiling seemed like a chore...


you saved my life.



thank you for the following gifts:

John Legend: Get Lifted
.seems like whatever kanye touches turns to gold. or in this case...i'm gonna predict 'platinum'.this one takes all the stars and mics. if you've been waiting for the cd that'll revive your collection of subpar gatherings from '04.....'tis the one. besides...what's sexier than a black man playing piano? the best way to describe how this will go is to think back to lauryn hill and erykah badu's debut. the many songs and lyrics confessing to infidelity are...amusing and bold. only complaint....cd tapers off towards the end and switches gears from you singing your ass OFF like you're the one in the studio to calming down and wanting to lay on someone's chest listening to their heart beat.
personally...i prefer singing like i'm the one in the studio.
...dec. 28th release.

De La Soul: Grind Date
...everything you would expect from a de la soul album
...for non-fans...this means 'solid'...

Talib Kweli: Beautiful Struggle
Talib does what he does best and delivers tight lyrics...
jayz said it..."if skills sold/truth be told/i'd probably lyrically/be talib kweli..."
thing is...i feel some of the beats could have been totally reworked....

i would also like to add that i damn near jogged to 42nd to grab free tickets to bilal's concert @ BB Kings on the 10th...


i'm no professional music critic...
but i live for good music...